Words for the Speechless...

{Wisdom says} some things are better left unsaid
But what am I to do with the chaotic thoughts in my head
Chaotic in theory, but singular {in truth}
I have but one thought in my head – you

When I look into your eyes, you’re so familiar to me
But our feelings are as strangers, ships passing in the sea
Me, I’m filled with intense desire and you with {heart-crushing} indifference
In all of our communication there remains a {mutual} incoherence

I live for the possibility of inspiring inside of you what doesn’t exist
And you so calmly, so easily, {so heartlessly} resist
What is the point of my hope if left unfulfilled
What is the point of my dreaming, long after a dream is killed

My emotions run high, but I’m forced to suppress
Because you want a friend in me -- no more, maybe less
And for me that {pitiful} something is better than nothing at all
So I retreat to my perpetual place just outside of your heart’s wall
Hoping maybe you’ll extend your scepter and invite me to come in
But here I go, holding onto {foolish} hope once again

Your flattery is an insult, your compliments cut deep
Because if I’m as great as you say then why won’t you take the leap
Why do you insist on keeping me at bay
Is there any part of you that would care if I walked away

Do you hold any feelings inside of your heart {that maybe you’re unwilling to let go}
Feelings unexpressed aren’t feelings at all, you know
Don’t allow me to dwell in a solitary prison of affection
If the thought that you don’t feel the same is really a figment of my imagination

Do you have the slightest clue how I truly feel about you
That I would {clearly} do anything you asked me to
That I like everything {even what you don’t like} about you
That my pride is out the window and the game changes completely with you

I like you, I desire you, I could even love you
There I said it
But when I said I don’t believe in love {unrequited}
I meant it.

What am I to do now, with the unspeakable expressed so clear
My guard is irreversibly shattered -- {I now face my greatest fear}
But maybe rejection isn’t so bad, at least the truth is out there
And maybe one day you’ll look back and remember that {at one point} I cared

Rarely is my heart this transparent or my deepest thoughts exposed
But these feelings threatened to overwhelm me, if not disclosed
This heartpour may cause you to think of me differently {I’m aware of the chance I take}
But that’s a {sacrifice} I’m willing to make…

-- Alissa Griffith