Breaking a Habit

Research has found that it takes 21 days to break a habit.

That is good news for me because incessantly desiring Trump is definitely a habit I need to break.

In 21 days, I will be dropping the Carribean off at the airport in Ohio. And at the rate I am going now, I can guarantee that I will be calling Trump before I even pull out of the parking garage. He won't answer of course or call me back at all that evening. Then maybe he'll text me the next day. In conversation, I'll tell him I am home. He will feign interest in that information. I'll suggest we go out. He will say we should and promise to call me later that night. I will pick out a cute outfit and deny my friends when they ask to kick it telling them I already have plans. I will get home around 10-ish and pretend I am not waiting for him to call. No call will come. If I am strong, I will say forget it and go to sleep. I am not strong. So, I will text him around midnight. He will not respond. He will text me at 4am apologizing because he fell asleep. A variation of this exact situation has happened countless times in the past nine months we have known each other. Sad right? Precisely.

I will not. I cannot go through that anymore. It's degrading. It's insulting. It kills my self-esteem. It is (like Trump himself) a total waste of my time.

So, I have a new plan -- a plan with a deadline.

I am going to spend the next 21 days breaking the habit that is Trump.

I know it sounds ridiculous, but it is so necessary. I am obsessed with this guy and the quicker I get over him, the better for my sanity.

My plan is to not call him, text him, email him, Facebook message him -- no contact whatsoever -- until further notice and ideally never again.

Why?

Because I am wasting my time with him. I like him SO much. I can see spending the rest of my life with him. But, he clearly doesn't feel that way about me. If he does, it is about time he showed it. How can he miss me if I never go away? And how will I get over him if I never let go?

In the next 21 days, I figure one of two things will happen.
A) I will ignore him thus prompting him to contact me
B) Our "relationship" will disintegrate without my constant nurturing and I'm not going to care.

Both options above bode well for me because neither involves me liking him while he clearly doesn't like me.

21 days to get over Trump. I can totally do this. I get straight A's in school. I have interned at two different national news stations. I can exercise for 45 minutes straight. I can read a 500-page book. I can process new information quickly. I can dance. I can write poetry. God has graced me with a lot of talents and abilities. Surely, I can get over Trump.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phillippians 4:13