Is This Helping?

When I decided two weeks ago that I would not contact Trump, I didn't anticipate that it would be so hard. I want to talk to him so bad.

My first plan was to never initiate contact twice in a row, then I decided not to contact him at all. This is very hard.

Nights like tonight I just want to call him or text him and be in his life -- even if just for a moment. But, I won't give in. I am so SAD right now. I miss him so much. I just want him to like me....

Okay, I'm whining.

But he texted me Thursday night (about five minutes after I got done telling my mom he hadn't contacted me since Monday night) to tell me about his awkward encounter with James. I cannot stand James. I called Trump and he didn't answer but then he texted me back (with no explanation as to why he ignored my call). We texted for like 15 minutes and then we stopped. Ugh. I am It's like every time I talk to him, I am happy but it just makes it worse cause I want to scream, why don't you like me????

So pitiful, am I underneath this cool exterior. Haha.

I just feel like Trump and I are so perfect for each other. I don't know why I am the only one who sees this and whether or not this is even worth my time. I just want to get over it for real. I want a future with him so bad, but I feel like it won't happen. But I want it to! I want it to!

Okay, I'm stopping now. *Sigh*

Is this even helping? Me not contacting him? I think about him just as much, if not more than ever. I'll let it go eventually.

I guess.