Oh What A Month Can Bring

At this point, I am not sure what I am supposed to think.

A month ago I decided that Trump just wanted to be left alone. However, at this point, I am not so sure.

There hasn't been an incredible amount of change of events. He still hardly contacts me, but we have talked a few times. Once we talked all night! We talked as friends, but a part of me feels he wants more than that.

This is what some would call "inconsistent reinforcement". Does he like me? Does he not like me? I cannot stand wondering, but I feel like that is all I do lately -- just wonder. I really just want to be over it. It is hard though. I feel like one day I will be over it, but will I really? I think a part of me doesn't want to be over it. I want to be with him. I just want a chance I think. I mean, I'm not asking to marry the guy. I just want the opportunity to date him so that all of this will not be in vain. Is that too much to ask? Am I being utterly ridiculous. Probably. Do I care? Not really.