Engaged?

A best friend is someone who will "friend" Rachel* on FB for you.

So, Shanae friended Rachel on FB the other day. It turns out that Rachel's relationship status on FB says "engaged". Is she engaged to Trump? Maybe. I did see a Jared Jewelers business card on his dresser once and a Tiffany's business card on his dresser another time. So did he ask her to marry him? Looks to be that way.

I can't even be mad really. I mean, who am I kidding? It's over for us. We are so past "over" that I can't even see "over" from where I'm standing. Am I salty? Of course. But what did I expect? He ceased being an option for me about nine months before I even realized it. Him being engaged just dumps the dirt on the coffin that Rachel being pregnant put the final nail in. {Did you catch that?}

I cannot continue to invest time and money (buying new outfits to wear when I know Ill see him) in a depreciating asset. He is now a liability to me. He adds nothing to my life, only takes away. He sucks me DRY of my energy, willpower, life and happiness. I am on cloud nine when he is around and devastated when he's ignoring me. Who has time for that? Certainly not me.

Nothing I say or do can change these debilitating facts: He has a kid and he's engaged.

I showed Krystal a picture of him on Facebook and she texted me saying: You deserve WAY better! Not some Backstreet boy who hoes himself around with Miss Piggy look alikes and thinks he can still have you on the side. NO...You're not his Hershey Escape!

Hahaha sooooo mean! But, when I think about it, it's true (minus the Backstreet Boys and Miss Piggy reference...okay, the Miss Piggy reference can stay). He can't just treat me like a commodity. Ugh, I sound like a broken record.

I went to his grad chapter's probate yesterday and saw him there. And then he came over tonight to give me my earrings and we talked for about an hour (I didn't ask him about the engagement). Seeing him two days in a row was heaven and my entire living room smells like him now. I'm not going to allow myself to go there though. He means nothing to me, remember Alissa???? You're OVER him. I'm going to start telling myself that one million times a day until it is true.

Man, he IS gorgeous though...LOL.